God, what do they take me for? A sheep? A Lemming? An idiot?
Well, do you just expect me not to notice you fucking with my grades Ms. Shit-for-brains? How my average should be an 86 but you have me as a 79? Like Im to much of a loser to do the math? Honestly, you should have stuck with an 82 or something. Because I cant get above a 90 on two tests and still get a C. Duh.

My dad saw my blog entries. Now I can't post any more "insulting" or "unacceptable" blogs. Or my signature dark poems. All I can do is post my stories.
But isn't this supposed to be "Giving voice to the teen mind"? Like, not censored and free speech and whatever?
But who cares? Im not gonna stop. I'll do whatever I damn well please.
And technically, I can still post whatever I want. Freedom of speech and freedom of press. It's in the constitution. Like they think I grew up under a rock.

I hate you.
You sit on the nightstand and watch me. Your red eyes bore into me. You poke me, prod me, tease me, taunt me!
You wonder why I hit you?!?
You little DEMON! You should never have come into the world.
I want to be left alone. Sleep is good. Give me back my dreams!
Damn you, alarm clock!

Im feeling sick...
I ran 7 miles on Cross Country. 5 of them were uphill...
I have to write a research paper.
My bio teacher is messing with my grades. I hate her so much.
I'm missing the dance on Friday.
School is just a nightmare. Im gonna wake u any second to the demonic alarm clock...
My parents are gonna pull me out if I get a C cuz they dont want to pay tuition. So I'll never see my friends again.
Soon I'll be getting blown up in ANOTHER lecture.
Just another perfect day.

Author's Note: Maybe...someday...

Someday Maybe
By Rose 9/29/08

Someday
Maybe I will get
To sleep in your arms
Again.

Someday
Maybe I will get
To lie naked with you
Again.

Someday
Maybe we will find that
Love we have pushed aside
Again.

Someday
Maybe she will
Learn to trust us
Again…

Two words.
Linkin Park.
Their music just touches me. It reflects my life.
I gotta find 'Somewhere i belong'
Just plz,plz 'No more sorrow'!!!!
Im 'numb' as i write this.
Im 'crawling' just 'one step closer' to find out what happens 'in the end'
SO JUST F*CKIN 'BLEED IT OUT' ALREADY AIGHT?!?

so i feel like tihs site sorta fell aprt.

Author's Note: The guilt of intimate love...

Stay Pure and Holy
By Rose 7/8/08

Sometimes the guilt
Of what we do
Is so painful.

But the feeling
Is so wonderful
I could never
Let it go.

So promise me
You’ll help me
To stay pure and
Help me to
Stay Holy…

Will they get it over with already? I'm tired of the lectures. Can't they see I don't care? It's not that it won't sink in, or that I'm stupid, I just don't care. My parents are pissing me off.
How easy it would be to run off, not look back, not care. But I won't do that. Running away from your problems is for wimps. I'm gonna tough it out for a little while.
My parents just have to learn that they don't control me anymore, I'm not a puppet, I have my own will, and I'm gonna fight anyone who says otherwise. We're gonna be in charge someday, so I'm gonna start early.